You ever have that problem -

Where all you want to do is draw personal art / random things?
But you know that you have things you need to do,
and you internally battle yourself between trying to force yourself to do the work you need to
and the art you want to do? And you feel like complete crap because you want to please the people who order from you,
but you just can't will yourself to do it on time?

Yeah

THAT'S ALL ME RIGHT NOW.  

EDIT : and btw, i'm a naturally slow worker as well. I'm not gifted with the attention span or patience of some other people who can work for 6hrs+ straight on one thing. I need variety or tons of breaks, because I can't devote myself to anything for that long. I mean, I don't go to school so I have ALL the time in the world, but even I need time off.